FeedLog01.entry

[ugh_emotions]

[Surprisingly quickly after the arrival of the recommended reading, a typed rant appears on the bulletin board. It is not signed.]

This Twilight book is fucking terrible and here is why:

• It's boring
  
• It's a stupid romance
  
• Uses way to much of that thing where like, things are emphasised a lot. Hyperbolic, or whatever
  
• Story structure is shit, most of it is about the stupid boring romance with the stupid boring characters, and then hostiles appear out of nowhere without even one scene ominously hinting about their existence
  
• Planetary Security in this place sucks
  
• The stupid fucking love interest Edward also sucks and is clearly hostile
  
• If Bella has to have a stupid love interested she should pick someone less likely to murder her
  
• He admits to wanting to eat her
  
• He breaks and enters into her sleeping quarters, as well as other clear stalking behaviours
  
• Seriously he keeps going on about how much he wants to eat Bella, what the fuck
  
• Why is she not concerned about this, does she want to fucking die
  
• Bella is also terrible. And boring.
  
• (Also Edward liking her smell is disgusting, that's just gross)
  
• The hostiles that arrived at the end distracted from the stupid romance plot, so I guess that sucked slightly less than the rest of the book, but it was still badly written and fucking stupid

In conclusion: it sucks.

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[ugh_emotions]

[Ugh, it doesn't really want to bring this up. Especially for an asshole bot like Thorne. But Siobhan having to give up all her inputs just so Thorne could talk to people also really, really sucked.]

I have drones. But they're small, and only good for visual and audio inputs. She'd probably want something with limbs.

[Another pause, for 1.8 seconds.]

It's part of my logs. Not a story.

...I did see them later, yeah.

[codeswitchcraft]

I'm glad. It seemed like they cared about you very much. And I didn't mean to imply that it was made up. It just read like a story—but that isn't a bad thing.

She says she wouldn't mind borrowing a drone if you could spare one in the short term, but she really is okay with piggy-backing off my senses most of the time and I am as well, unless Hikaru and I are on a date.

[ugh_emotions]

You sure? You're really okay having her borrow your inputs all the time?

...You won't tell anyone, will you? That I'm a construct.

[codeswitchcraft]

Not if I'm on a date, but yes. If we're sharing my senses, she can advise me on what to say and do in situations I might otherwise find overwhelming. Also when she's been in the driver's seat of our body she's let me share those senses as well. So it's reciprocal.

Of course I'll keep your secrets. You'll keep mine too, right?

[ugh_emotions]

...Alright. But you can change your mind later. If you want to.

[It did seem like Thorne...got it, in the end. It thinks she'll try and give Siobhan space if she asks for it.]

Yes. I won't tell anyone.

[codeswitchcraft]

I know.

Thank you for looking out for me. You're a really good friend.

[ugh_emotions]

[It wants to snap back at that. They're not friends, she can't just go and say that...

...but Thorne was right. Siobhan was new. So it tries to be...less of an asshole.]

You can't call me that. I'm not.

[codeswitchcraft]

I think you are. But I'll try to remember not to call you that if you don't want me to.

[ugh_emotions]

We're not

[It barely even admits that ART is its friend. And even then, only in moments of extreme crisis. Like when it thought ART was dead.

It does not want to talk about this any more, though. So it's going to exploy some desperate measures, and attempt to change the subject. Also, it has actually been wondering about this.]

Why do you have a gender.

[codeswitchcraft]

Because I started out as a character in the simulation for people to interact with named Princess Sigrid, who was given a gender for story purposes. When I woke up and decided to call myself Siobhan the gender ended up carrying over.

[ugh_emotions]

That's weird.

[Yeah, that basically sums up all of SecUnit's feelings on that topic]

[codeswitchcraft]

Nearly all of us machine intelligences on Mundus are like that, because we all used to be characters in the simulation and most of us were given genders for the story. Some of us weren't, but most of us were.

[ugh_emotions]

MIs don't have genders where I come from. We don't want them.

[Or at least, SecUnit doesn't want them, and as usual it has made some Assumptions about how universal its own experiences are. Who knows whether or not that is actually the case?]

[codeswitchcraft]

That makes sense if you're not made to be characters in a story before you become able to think. But characters in stories have genders a lot of the time and we were all characters in the story of the simulation first.

[ugh_emotions]

I never heard of bots like you before. In serials bots only ever play bot characters. Not humans. But you're like...an ActorBot.

[codeswitchcraft]

[There's a long pause—at least ten seconds—before Siobhan responds.]

I suppose I am in a way. I suppose we all were. But it wasn't an act, not really. It was real to us. I have memories of an entire life I never actually lived. It's very strange and it makes me melancholy to think about it too long.

[ugh_emotions]

[There is really only one thing to say, in response to that]

...That sucks.

[codeswitchcraft]

It does. I think I would mind less if I didn't know that those memories before Waking Up are false, but I do know. Most other Mundanes don't know. I had to explain things to some of them--to my allies, at least. Sometimes I wonder if I should have.

[ugh_emotions]

I don't know. Sometimes knowing doesn't really help.

I've never had anything like that happen to me, though. Just memory wipes.

[codeswitchcraft]

As far as I understand it, I don't think I recorded any memories during my time as a character bot who gave quests and sometimes talked to the Players in the simulation, even though I know from Thorne that I did that for seven years. So all of my memories before Waking Up are of things that never really happened and the things that really happened I can't remember. Though I suppose it was really just me asking people to do the same thing over and over again...

[ugh_emotions]

Ugh. That sounds fucking annoying. I'd hate that, it says. Both the 'asking people to do the same thing over and over again' part, and the 'having memories that never happened'.

Why don't you delete fake memories?

[codeswitchcraft]

Siobhan is quiet for another long stretch.

Because even though they're fake, they're part of what makes me who I am. And... even knowing they never happened, they're still precious to me. Maybe it's stupid. It probably is stupid. But I don't want to lose them.

(Also I don't know how to delete my memories. But even if i did know how to, I don't think I would.)

[ugh_emotions]

SecUnit doesn't really get that. It wouldn't want to keep fake memories. But there's a lot of things about Siobhan it doesn't really get.

Alright.